FALL TO FLY (:
studying outdoorssssss
tonight, im studying outdoors,well partially outdoors.ive really grown to like the calmness at the patio,accompanied by crickets.church today was enjoyable,like axel mentioned, ive grown to appreciate the small things,even if its just doing whacky things and eating together as a cell after service.it did feel like family, the comfort of it all. hamy is leaving this fridayyy, and i wont be able to meet her anymore.and reality hit when she left on 23 to tamp with the rest while i was gg to head home. but alls goooddd as long as shes good.and so, tmr, or rather today, marks the start of a crazy week.5 days 5 papers, after calculation i realised i have 14 hours of writing to do this week, i just hope my brain and hands wont hurt.i feel like a time bomb, awaiting 4 30pm on friday. i only realised i hadnt had dinner at 12 plus am,so i cooked myself instant noodles,plonked myself at the patio and started reading for tmrs exam. in the words of trudy ann and myself, theres no correlation between studying and being bothered by problems. well of course our mind wanders off at times, but we came to an agreement that studying keeps your mind of problems. Not that im suffering from any issue now, but i guess i kind of got to understand why people suppress emotional pain with occupying themselves, busying themselves. to a certain extent, it works. haha. but please dont try it at home.and tonight, for reasons unknown, id like to say im not strong enoough,was never strong enough to overcome whatever life threw at me. i know it sounds cliche, but God held me throughout. and i dont apologise for being cliche, because theres truth in it.
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